This is my last post here. I’ve realized that the tumblr world, the social justice world it’s portrayed as here, all of these things I have tried to understand and fit the contours of are not me.

I humbly withdraw and realize that the good fight, for me, personally, is elsewhere - my current journey with social media is as a trained lab rat slave to a giant social media company whose name starts with a F and you can guess the rest there. I cannot choose to get away from that; it pays my bills and teaches me so much about the world that I was previously unaware of.

Some of you give me life. Some of you have been a place to throw my dark secrets and some of you have pissed me off like when I used to hurl Zen koan books across the room and I thank you for this experience.

I have found resources which make the once terrifying prospect of transition (that’s transmasculine, for y'all who aren’t on that grind) less horrible. I have found ways to speak when I was still in the throes of intense trauma back in early March that I couldn’t elucidate otherwise. I went to therapy. I took some meds. I made some friends out here and I’m getting better.

I’m hoping to just have a quiet blog on the edge of wordpress somewhere to post pictures of sea lions and think about where I’m going and how the idea of the travel, itself, is beautiful and something I want so badly to share, but that I can choose to and set my digital boundaries like I do my physical ones.

Once again, thank you so much for what I’ve learned here, but I believe this platform is no longer the digital oasis I used to quietly dissociate into while stoned as shit. I believe this platform needs to check its collective self before it wrecks itself with some of the viewpoints we’ve been putting out there. I don’t want to be a “social justice warrior” and just get back to when I did boots on the ground organizing and counseling and everything else that felt cheapened and commodified by what I see here. 

Like Edwidge Danticat says at the end of a story in “Krik? Krak!” —

May your flight be joyful and mine too.

xo

Quill

Functions and their manifestations

inquisitivemidnight:

Se noticing immediate details, manifests in commandingness.
Si recalling stored impressions/data, manifests in conscientiousness.
Te structuring for efficiency, manifests in strategy.
Ti valuing for logical coherence, manifests in logic.
Ne ordering perspectives, manifests in perception.
Ni envisaging effects, manifests in discernment.
Fe managing social cohesion, manifests in concern.
Fi reviewing beliefs, manifests in sensitivity.
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(via myersandbriggs)